You're not the only one

Whoever said it was a curse to feel everything so deeply spoke the best truth.

You know that feeling where you feel everything changing around you but you can’t do anything about it because others can’t see it, or they choose to not see it and you can’t say anything because you would seem like a sucker, so you choose to hold it in and drown in it and then it messes with your head and you start to confuse fantasy with reality.

When someone starts to ‘act weirdly’ around you and you get confused. You don’t know if you should call their attention to it or let it be. If you do call their attention to it, you’re clingy or a freak to have noticed the slightest change; be it the way they shrug their shoulders, stare or smile at you and  you realise it doesn’t reach their eyes anymore, even the way they call your name becomes ordinary, you don’t feel the magic. So you begin to gradually drift, you begin to let until you are nothing but strangers to each other.

The crazy part is you feel this alone, the madness, the chaos, the trying to figure out if its all in your head or real, the reality that it is; it’s you, just you and it’s sad.