Roses and Heartaches

The art of letting go You start feeling like you can't do it anymore Like nothing makes sense  Like no one understands you Like you're been stared at endlessly but they see nothing.  They can't see the pain, the ache, the depression that's waiting to consume you like fire seduced by gasoline  Only you can see you're a disaster waiting to happen You start wanting a way out The easy way out Because you're tired Because every breathe has become a struggle Because the pain never ceases to end And because you just want to stop feeling even if its just for a while. You need the break a moment where you feel nothing but serenity and peace of mind. Where you're oblivious to all that's around you You think it through Who's going to notice your absence first? Who's going to call when no one's heard from you Who will find you How long would it take? You start to strategise  Not realising you're do

I came to  I try to remember the chaos around me  Broken bottles, filth, burnt cigars How did I end up in this mess Then it comes to me Piece by piece This is what I've been reduced to This is what my life's like now since you left Since you've been gone I wake up every morning With no idea of the night before My reminders are the bottles littered around The nude bodies in my bed the cold strange faces I wake up to And sometimes, when I wake up alone  I have to try a little bit harder  To piece the fragments together Ever since you left Life has been a blur Days go by in a haze And I'm lost in my mind Ever since you left Memories of you is the hardest place to visit  How do I survive this Friends tell me it will be alright They don't know how it feels To lose someone That was once a part of your soul  Ever since you left I find solace in the bottom of bottles I hold onto them for dear life I

I don't know what this is all i know is when im with you im happy seconds turn to minutes and minutes to hours Its never enough I find myself wanting more, more than i ever thought possible. You make me happy You make me feel like im enough You make me feel beauty you make me feel like im all you've ever wanted How do you make me feel these when others have tried and failed? You make me come alive. I gave up on happy but here i am standing by your side next to you with this bone cracking grin on my face and this glow i feel from within Its beyond anything i've ever felt. If this is what love feels like i want to never lose it i want to spend the rest of my life by your side hoping nothing changes you'll be you and i'll be me and we'll be just what we are right now, happy and in love oblivious to the world around us

Words fail me I can't seem to describe how I feel Maybe this is what emptiness feels like But what do I know Emotion fails me  This void is indescribable  Its more than a dictionary meaning I'm still trying to understand Love failed me The one thing I believed in The one thing I thought would carry me on The only thing I loved to love Who would have thought What happened to us Our perfect The little world of our own Where we had thrones And we ruled Side by side As king and queen We had forever before us Infinite was just a word Our foundation Oh our foundation Built on love  As strong as titanium We had our wars  We won We had our weaknesses  We got better We had our flaws Oh sweet beautiful flaws  We had our heaven We had us But now, Look at us! We are nothing Mere humans  We ain't even got the blood of gods Its but red Mortality stinks around us Hatred flows within our veins We de

We’ve become strangers to ourselves. We barely say two words to each other. I’m watching you slip away, fading gradually. You’re not even there when I try to talk to you, your mind is on a journey; so, eager to travel, far far away from me. I stare at you but I don’t see you. I feel like I barely know you anymore I talk to you and you forget to smile, but I see you smile at other people. Is there someone else? Are you in love with her? Cause I see she makes you laugh like I used to. She makes you come alive in ways only I used to. I miss us. I miss our little moments, the little things you used to do that meant everything to me.   I miss the nights we get so wasted and talk about our future together. Is it still with me? I'm scared to touch you cause i feel im no longer good enough You dont see me like you used to I;m no longer your world And even as i stay, convincing myself you're good enough for me; all i feel is this loneline

She would give her soul to feel loved. She would sell herself short to have that love even if its unrequited. Shes walked through fire, her heart's been broken, her feet are sore, no more tears to cry. She wants to be loved, loved with a love so strong, so real, so passionate- loved with the lights on. She wants to be seen, she needs to be mended; she craves for sanity, for an unbroken mind.  She would kill to feel again; she just wants to be loved... A moment, thats all she asks for. Love her like a life depends on it, it just might. Kiss her like a butterfly feeding on the best nectar its ever found, touch her like you're scared she'd be broken, breathe her in like shes the only air you need to survive, adore her like the roses in your garden, treat her like you'll never find anyone better, hold her like you're scared she'd slip away, and fall in love with her like she's all you've ever wanted.  When her flaws make her cringe, and she hides in the