I came to


I came to 
I try to remember the chaos around me 
Broken bottles, filth, burnt cigars
How did I end up in this mess
Then it comes to me
Piece by piece
This is what I've been reduced to
This is what my life's like now
since you left

Since you've been gone
I wake up every morning
With no idea of the night before
My reminders are the bottles littered around
The nude bodies in my bed
the cold strange faces I wake up to
And sometimes, when I wake up alone 
I have to try a little bit harder 
To piece the fragments together

Ever since you left
Life has been a blur
Days go by in a haze
And I'm lost in my mind

Ever since you left
Memories of you is the hardest place to visit 
How do I survive this
Friends tell me it will be alright
They don't know how it feels
To lose someone
That was once a part of your soul 
Ever since you left
I find solace in the bottom of bottles
I hold onto them for dear life
I'm afraid when I come to
I'll be a mess
Drowning in misery
Flailing desperately
With no hope for life support

You left me, 
You fucking left me 
I held the door open 
And you walked right through
Like it was nothing to you
Like you didn't see me breaking into tiny pieces
Like you were so certain I could live with out you
Like you didn't even care any more
Its okay though
I'll chin-up and smile through this
I'll be fine



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