Roses and Heartaches

Don't tell me you're crazy about me, act it. Don't tell me you love me, show me. We live an era of people spewing more 'I love you's' than please. They say it to lower your inhibitions. A supposed boyfriend says it to his "the one" everyday yet he's out there getting to know different other girls as a prerequisite for a future relationship, loser. I don't need another lie, I lie to myself enough as it is. I don't need complications, if I'm not good enough for you, let me go, someone else has somehow proven he can't live without me. Unbound me from my illusion of loving you, set me free so I can find the one made for me. Don't act like I'm the queen in this game when I'm nothing but a pawn, ready to be sacrificed  I'd rather you let me go than I hate you. And when I go, don't come back with regrets I don't want no 'baby please I fucked up' Dude, you had your chance and...

The art of letting go You start feeling like you can't do it anymore Like nothing makes sense  Like no one understands you Like you're been stared at endlessly but they see nothing.  They can't see the pain, the ache, the depression that's waiting to consume you like fire seduced by gasoline  Only you can see you're a disaster waiting to happen You start wanting a way out The easy way out Because you're tired Because every breathe has become a struggle Because the pain never ceases to end And because you just want to stop feeling even if its just for a while. You need the break a moment where you feel nothing but serenity and peace of mind. Where you're oblivious to all that's around you You think it through Who's going to notice your absence first? Who's going to call when no one's heard from you Who will find you How long would it take? You start to strategise  Not realising you're do...

I came to  I try to remember the chaos around me  Broken bottles, filth, burnt cigars How did I end up in this mess Then it comes to me Piece by piece This is what I've been reduced to This is what my life's like now since you left Since you've been gone I wake up every morning With no idea of the night before My reminders are the bottles littered around The nude bodies in my bed the cold strange faces I wake up to And sometimes, when I wake up alone  I have to try a little bit harder  To piece the fragments together Ever since you left Life has been a blur Days go by in a haze And I'm lost in my mind Ever since you left Memories of you is the hardest place to visit  How do I survive this Friends tell me it will be alright They don't know how it feels To lose someone That was once a part of your soul  Ever since you left I find solace in the bottom of bottles I hold onto them for dear li...