Smiling through my tears

You don't get to let me make you my everything and leave like i was nothing to you. You don't get to make me bare myself entirely open to you and you act indifferent about it like its a regular occurrence. You don't get to make me fall for you and not treat me like i should be treated. You don't get to give me a taste of what i have been missing out on pull out the rug from off underneath my feet. You don't get to show me a glimpse of forever and take that vision away. I've seen this before, and despite the hurt, I'll smile and unconsciously start rebuilding my walls. It's what you wanted isn't it? You wanted to know if i was capable of feeling, well, you've won, you can leave now.

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