Is it too late to wish you a Happy new year? Happy new year guys, i pray 2017 bring you steps closer to achieving your dreams. Have an awesome and fun filled year. May recession not not locate you, help me say amin o.
We’ve become strangers to ourselves. We barely say two words to each other. I’m watching you slip away, fading gradually. You’re not even there when I try to talk to you, your mind is on a journey; so, eager to travel, far far away from me. I stare at you but I don’t see you. I feel like I barely know you anymore I talk to you and you forget to smile, but I see you smile at other people. Is there someone else? Are you in love with her? Cause I see she makes you laugh like I used to. She makes you come alive in ways only I used to. I miss us. I miss our little moments, the little things you used to do that meant everything to me. I miss the nights we get so wasted and talk about our future together. Is it still with me? I'm scared to touch you cause i feel im no longer good enough You dont see me like you used to I;m no longer your world And even as i stay, convincing myself you're good enough for me; all i feel is this loneline...
Whoever said it was a curse to feel everything so deeply spoke the best truth. You know that feeling where you feel everything changing around you but you can’t do anything about it because others can’t see it, or they choose to not see it and you can’t say anything because you would seem like a sucker, so you choose to hold it in and drown in it and then it messes with your head and you start to confuse fantasy with reality. When someone starts to ‘act weirdly’ around you and you get confused. You don’t know if you should call their attention to it or let it be. If you do call their attention to it, you’re clingy or a freak to have noticed the slightest change; be it the way they shrug their shoulders, stare or smile at you and you realise it doesn’t reach their eyes anymore, even the way they call your name becomes ordinary, you don’t feel the magic. So you begin to gradually drift, you begin to let until you are nothing but strangers to each other. The crazy part is ...
Lots of my best memories are with people i don’t even talk to anymore. I guess i have to be more careful with making memories because those things last almost forever. Very difficult to let go of or forget. And it really hurts when these memories that are supposed to make you smile; supposed to be your happy place, end up ruined and tainted because you probably aren’t in contact with those people or worse, not even in speaking terms with them. Life is crazy, you meet strangers that turn into friends and then strangers again, but one has to move on and make more memories, better ones that would ‘out happy’ those other memories. That’s how you survive.
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